"What God Meant"

I found this poem when I came across this blog about another couple going through the IVF process. I often wonder "Why me, God?". Why do we have to go through this painful journey of infertility? I may never know the answer to the why, but this poem may be what God meant for us.

"What God Meant"
Author Unknown

"What do I think God meant when He gave me infertility?
I think He meant for my husband and I to grow closer, become stronger, love deeper.

I think God meant for us to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down.

I think God meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols.

I think God meant for us to find a cure for fertility.

No, God never meant for me to not have children.

That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on.

I've been placed on the road less traveled, and like it or not,
I'm a better person for it.

Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution,
and I won't let Him down.

Frankly, if the truth be known,
I think God singled me out for special treatment.

**I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms,
it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known.**

While I would never have chosen infertility,
I cannot deny that a fertile woman could ever experience the joy that I know awaits me.
Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own.
And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advice,
I'll say,
"Don't tell me what God meant when He handed me infertility.

I already know."

3rd time's a charm?

Well, the second IUI was no good. I took a test on Sunday that was negative. I had a blood test scheduled for June 27. I prayed that the at home test was just taken too soon. Although, I didn't have much faith. When I went in for the blood test I told the nurse I was pretty sure it would be negative. We decided to go ahead and schedule an appointment to start the IVF process. Sure enough, I got the call later that confirmed the negative test. I have an appointment scheduled for Monday to talk to the IVF specialist. They told us the appointment would take about 2 hours and we would go over everything we need to know...